47 Days

It has been 47 days since restarting the carnivore way of eating and I am feeling good. I got back my mental clarity and calmness.

I am no longer anxious and no longer depressed. But of course I am not immune to bad news or grim circumstances or stress. I just react very differently.

There were two Mondays when I received phone calls from my mum informing me that dad was being rushed to the emergency room.

The first Monday (this was some 3 weeks ago) after I hung up the phone, I had a meltdown. I cried my eyes out. The following day I had a meeting and I was on the verge of an anxiety attack. But thankfully I got through it.

And then two weeks later (again a Monday), I got the same call. But by that time my faculties were in order and although I was very concerned, I was calm and stable.

Last Saturday my mum took me aside and shared a grim prognosis (which was conveyed to her by a family member who is a doctor) about dad but I did not cry. I was surprisingly calm and accepting of the unfavorable news. But at some point I know I will cry but not now while dad is still alive and mentally sharp.

Okie. Enough of my sad stories. Now let's look at my ugly food hah..hah..hah..

That was dinner on one of the evenings. I have not been posting my daily meals because (1) I eat almost the same thing everyday (2) they are not nice to look at.

I have been keeping myself accountable and it is the loss of mental clarity/focus that keeps me in check. The anxiety that came back scared the hell out of me. I don't want to live like that again.

Last Sunday at Aeon I noticed that the mooncake kiosks are kicking into action.

This is my auntie's favorite brand.

Oversea. And that's where she is - overseas hee..hee... I am sure she can get her fill of mooncakes over there too.

Yesterday it rained cats and dogs. When I got home I was very hungry.

So I cooked two steaks. Not in the air fryer or cast iron pan, but using my non-stick pan simply because I hadn't washed it (yikes!) after frying eggs in the morning.

I managed to cook it quite all right. 

I love the fatty parts.

There was some gristle but that is where the collagen is at heh..heh... Yup I ate both steaks nyum..nyum...

This is today's breakfast cum lunch. I just simply campak everything into one lunchbox. I don't usually do breakfast but I am priming ie getting myself ready to get into (longer) fasting. 

It is simply part of the protocol - eating three meals a day for 14 days before tapering down to two meals a day, then one meal a day and eventually doing skips days. 

And now for some entertainment courtesy of the irrepressible Chef Wan who is able maintain his humor in the face of his cancer diagnosis.

Let us hope and pray that, God willing, Chef Wan and our friends/family members who are facing the same predicament may be healed and restored to good health again. Amen.

Meanwhile I couldn't help noticing this leng chai in Chef Wan's photo.