Today it is exactly 3 months since the day my father passed away.
The day before he passed, I had a heavy feeling in my heart. That was after the helper at the home updated me about my dad's condition.
So I found solace in food. Food with loads of carbohydrates. It was bad but a form of self soothing.
I went of Obba Jjajang, The Starling. I had this Jjajang Myeon.
It was surprisingly good.
Very stodgy and emotionally numbing. Like being on drugs. Not that I have done drugs, ok?
It was the pork chop with nonya curry sauce.
The coleslaw was delicious.
I was too emotionally disturbed to worry about the massive amount of carbs I ate that day.
I spent some moments at the "secret garden" with a heavy heart in my chest.
It was late afternoon and the atmosphere was somber and the air was still and heavy.
After spending about 15 minutes calming myself, I went back to the office. Later that day I went home and the rest is history.
Hugs PH. I hope you are coping well.
ReplyDeleteThank you, dear.
DeleteFrankly speaking, the days when my dad was hospitalized before he passed on, I went shopping after leaving the hospital visiting him, some people might think you bad, but that is my way of finding solace.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing wrong with going shopping to ease your mind and feelings. We all have different ways to cope.
DeleteWhen I'm hurting, I don't find solace in eating more carbs though. It will get better as time passes, hopefully.
ReplyDeleteGood for you, carbs actually make it worse. Yes, time will heal.
DeleteHugs π«
ReplyDeleteIt helps to write it out for closure. π
Thank you, Mun.
DeleteSending you warm hugs from Montreal, Canada, dear PH. Food can definitely be a comfort. I hope you are able to find comfort and solace. It is good that you shared this and I hope that you find healing in being able to share your experience.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Linda. Writing it down helped me a lot.
DeleteHugs.... hope you're better now.
ReplyDeleteThank you. Yes, I have accepted and moved on.
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